We need to let go of the need to constantly keep score. There are great possibilities patiently waiting to happen for us. Often times it may not be what we think or hope it is, but it is important that we let go of some of the obsessive attachments that we may have towards a certain thing. Remember that all we could ever hope for is already connected to us but it becomes impossible to see if we are constantly focused on getting more, or something else.
" Good things happen as soon as you get past the need for them. Let life flow as it will, and it will flow in great abundance." ~ Ralph Marston
So, stop interfering with your own authentic fulfillment. Sincerely treasure each and every experience, and there will be much more to treasure.